I wish I could read stars.

I wrote something a couple of minutes ago. Something about downgrading, but it made me sad so I decided to just erase it. Ho-hum. I can’t even think straight. All I want is a simple celebration with the people close to us. Then, I want my happily-ever-after. Why am I finding it so difficult to even imagine it at this point?

Probably the aftereffect of house hunting…then ending up in the middle of nowhere. We went to Rizal yesterday to look at properties. I thought it would be okay to abandon the city life that I’ve gotten so used to. We were looking for a less expensive place, probably in Cainta. The agent said that Rizal is the next development area. She failed to mention that the property was actually in Binangonan. It’s a 45-minute ride from Ortigas without traffic. Sadly, it’s the only thing we can afford at the moment.

On our way home, I couldn’t even find the words to express my frustration. I’m a city girl. I was born and raised in Makati and I lived in California for 3 years. I just couldn’t live in a place where I have to commute for 2 hours just to go to work. But being with him is where my heart is. I am willing to live anywhere just so I could wake up next to him everyday. I just hope he understands what I’m willing to give up for him.

What can I say? That’s love honey.